Hester van de Beuken

Born in Amsterdam, Netherlands in 1958

Biography

I am my mother’s whipping boy, and an unruly, depressed child
I am my mother’s whipping boy, and an unruly, depressed child
Amsterdam , Netherlands
At age 6, my aunt and uncle wish to adopt me
At age 6, my aunt and uncle wish to adopt me
Nieuwegein , Netherlands
At age 7, I am not yet toilet trained
At age 7, I am not yet toilet trained
Schinkelkade, Amsterdam-Zuid , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 7, I am raped and beaten at the hospital by the doctor who is treating me
At age 7, I am raped and beaten at the hospital by the doctor who is treating me
Linnaeusstraat, Amsterdam-Oost , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 13, I run away from home for the first time
At age 13, I run away from home for the first time
Haarlemmerstraat, Amsterdam-Centrum , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 15, I start drinking alcohol
At age 15, I start drinking alcohol
Amstelveenseweg, Amsterdam-Zuid , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 16, my relationship ends, and I try to shoot myself
At age 16, my relationship ends, and I try to shoot myself
Amstelveen , the Netherlands
At age 22, I wander on the streets and go home in order to drink
At age 22, I wander on the streets and go home in order to drink
Stationsplein, Amsterdam-Centrum , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 29, I marry my beloved
At age 29, I marry my beloved
Stadsplein , Nieuwegein , the Netherlands
At age 37, I wander on the streets, closed off into myself
At age 37, I wander on the streets, closed off into myself
Nieuwmarkt, Amsterdam-Centrum , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 38, I want to drown in the sea
At age 38, I want to drown in the sea
Zandvoort , the Netherlands
At age 39, I break with my family and my husband
At age 39, I break with my family and my husband
Zeedijk, Amsterdam-Centrum , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 39, I deny my addiction, resist treatment, and escape confinement in anxious-psychotic condition
At age 39, I deny my addiction, resist treatment, and escape confinement in anxious-psychotic condition
Postjesweg , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 40, I wander on the streets, depressed, neglected, furious, and ashamed, and drink myself into a stupor
At age 40, I wander on the streets, depressed, neglected, furious, and ashamed, and drink myself into a stupor
Eastonstraat, Amsterdam Nieuw-West , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 41, I am being kept asleep for a year
At age 41, I am being kept asleep for a year
Valeriusplein, Amsterdam-Zuid , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 44, I for the first time stick out psychiatric treatment, am being sent away, and end up wandering on the streets and drinking
At age 44, I for the first time stick out psychiatric treatment, am being sent away, and end up wandering on the streets and drinking
Meibergdreef, Amsterdam-Zuidoost , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 47, I live under the protection of a drug rehabilitation program, can for the first time feel myself, and commit myself to a man
At age 47, I live under the protection of a drug rehabilitation program, can for the first time feel myself, and commit myself to a man
Oude Arnhemseweg , Zeist , the Netherlands
At age 47, I am committed to a psychiatric hospital to be treated for depression and grow rigid, motionless, with fear
At age 47, I am committed to a psychiatric hospital to be treated for depression and grow rigid, motionless, with fear
Professor Bronkhorstlaan , Bilthoven , the Netherlands
At age 47, my beloved leaves me
At age 47, my beloved leaves me
Zeist , the Netherlands
At age 48, I live in gloom, without any defence
At age 48, I live in gloom, without any defence
Oude Arnhemseweg , Zeist , the Netherlands
At age 48, my demented father, my ally, dies
At age 48, my demented father, my ally, dies
Stationsplein, Amsterdam-Centrum , Amsterdam , the Netherlands
At age 48, I am declared mentally fit, the Addicts Care Services arrange for my admission to a psychiatric ward, then I'm thrown out without explanation and find myself on the street
At age 48, I am declared mentally fit, the Addicts Care Services arrange for my admission to a psychiatric ward, then I'm thrown out without explanation and find myself on the street
Oude Arnhemseweg , Zeist , the Netherlands

The conceptual architecture of TBDWBAJ is based on the investigation of various social spaces, isolated space, cultural space, public space and virtual space. Each of these rooms describes a phase of the project and takes on a different perspective.

THE ISOLATED SPACE

THE PUBLIC SPACE

THE CULTURAL SPACE