Hester van de Beuken
Born in Amsterdam, Netherlands in 1958.
Biography
Amsterdam, Netherlands
I am my mother’s whipping boy, and an unruly, depressed child
Nieuwegein, Netherlands
At age 6, my aunt and uncle wish to adopt me
Schinkelkade, Amsterdam-Zuid,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 7, I am not yet toilet trained
89 Linnaeusstraat, Amsterdam-Oost,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 7, I am raped and beaten at the hospital by the doctor who is treating me
Haarlemmerstraat, Amsterdam-Centrum,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 13, I run away from home for the first time
1124 Amstelveenseweg, Amsterdam-Zuid,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 15, I start drinking alcohol
Amstelveen, the Netherlands
At age 16, my relationship ends, and I try to shoot myself
Stationsplein, Amsterdam-Centrum,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 22, I wander on the streets and go home in order to drink
Stadsplein,
Nieuwegein, the Netherlands
At age 29, I marry my beloved
4 Nieuwmarkt, Amsterdam-Centrum,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 37, I wander on the streets, closed off into myself
Zandvoort, the Netherlands
At age 38, I want to drown in the sea
Zeedijk, Amsterdam-Centrum,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 39, I break with my family and my husband
Postjesweg,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 39, I deny my addiction, resist treatment, and escape confinement in anxious-psychotic condition
Eastonstraat, Amsterdam Nieuw-West,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 40, I wander on the streets, depressed, neglected, furious, and ashamed, and drink myself into a stupor
11 Valeriusplein, Amsterdam-Zuid,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 41, I am being kept asleep for a year
9 Meibergdreef, Amsterdam-Zuidoost,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 44, I for the first time stick out psychiatric treatment, am being sent away, and end up wandering on the streets and drinking
195-B Oude Arnhemseweg,
Zeist, the Netherlands
At age 47, I live under the protection of a drug rehabilitation program, can for the first time feel myself, and commit myself to a man
24 Professor Bronkhorstlaan,
Bilthoven, the Netherlands
At age 47, I am committed to a psychiatric hospital to be treated for depression and grow rigid, motionless, with fear
Zeist, the Netherlands
At age 47, my beloved leaves me
195-B Oude Arnhemseweg,
Zeist, the Netherlands
At age 48, I live in gloom, without any defence
Stationsplein, Amsterdam-Centrum,
Amsterdam, the Netherlands
At age 48, my demented father, my ally, dies
195-B Oude Arnhemseweg,
Zeist, the Netherlands
At age 48, I am declared mentally fit, Addicts Care Services arrange admission to a psychiatric ward, then I'm thrown out without explanation and find myself on the street
Related spaces
The conceptual architecture of TBDWBAJ is based on the investigation of various social spaces, isolated space, cultural space, public space and virtual space. Each of these rooms describes a phase of the project and takes on a different perspective.