Ana Carolina
Born in Fortaleza, Brazil in 1993.
Biography
Cidade dos Funcionários, Fortaleza, Brazil
I am the only child in a traditional family, and I don't have bad parents
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At age 6, I witness from the back seat of our car as my parents buy cocaine in the favela
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At age 7, my father abuses me in my parents’ bed whenever it suits him, while my mother is under the influence of sleeping pills
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Between age 7 and 13, my father claims that his sexual violence against me is ‘our secret’ and promises misfortune and poverty for our family if I reveal it
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Since childhood, I smell the cannabis cigarettes my father smokes in his office
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At age 12, I let a boy take my virginity
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At age 12, allow my body to be used in exchange for things I want, and consider myself as horrible a person as my father
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I attempt suicide since childhood. Though I can now control my thoughts about it, the urge remains
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At age 13 I snort cocaine
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At age 14, I identify with Kurt Cobain and adopt his motto Empathy
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At age 18, my parents and I snort cocaine together
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At age 18, I'm a good student and reward myself with dirty parties. I smoke cannabis, drink alcohol and use ecstasy and any other drug that comes my way
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At age 19, my boyfriend and I lead a normal life during the week and party at the weekend with excessive drug use
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At age 23, I am in the 8th semester of law school and I work as an events promoter
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At age 23, I fall in love with a tattoo artist who accepts drugs as payment. We use drugs together for days on end. I hallucinate and see myself in the mirror as the devil
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At age 23, my paranoid and jealous boyfriend will not let me leave the house because he wears an electronic ankle bracelet
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At age 24, I get pregnant and have a miscarriage
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At age 24, I work as a drug courier and travel to Spain and Amsterdam for the first time, which I continue for the next five years
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At age 25, I get pregnant again, I want the baby and my boyfriend is a good father
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At age 26, I travel to London carrying 5 kilos of cocaine and do a linguistic exchange
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At age 27, I go to counselling because of my boyfriend's jealousy
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At age 28, I fall in love with a man during a drug transport to Croatia and stay with him for 3 months. I transport drugs to Thailand and go back to Croatia for the summer
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At age 29, I console my love sadness with excessive drug use
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At age 29, I learn my son has autism and he doesn't speak until he's 5 years old
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At age 29, I take the drugs I am meant to transport, and use them myself for days on end
Airport Porto, Vila Nova da Telha, Portugal
At age 29, I am caught with drugs at Porto airport, I co-operate with the police and I am arrested at the hotel
Rua Gonçalves Zarco, Santa Cruz do Bispo, Portugal
At age 30, I receive a prison sentence of four years and eight months in Portugal
Rua Gonçalves Zarco, Santa Cruz do Bispo, Portugal
At age 30, I suffer discrimination from guards and inmates in prison
Rua Gonçalves Zarco, Santa Cruz do Bispo, Portugal
At age 30, I go through detox, my depression and borderline personality are treated psychiatrically and with medication. I attempt suicide again
Av. Zezé Diogo, Vicente Pinzon, Fortaleza, Brazil
At age 31, I feel ready for my freedom
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The conceptual architecture of TBDWBAJ is based on the investigation of various social spaces, isolated space, cultural space, public space and virtual space. Each of these rooms describes a phase of the project and takes on a different perspective.