At age six, I am afraid of my addict parents

At age twelve, my father dies

At age thirteen, I take my mother’s medicine and cannabis

At age sixteen, my brother dies

At age seventeen, I start shooting heroin

At age eighteen, my mother dies of an overdose

At age nineteen, I am living in france, homeless

At age twenty-five, I am jailed for the first time

At age thirty, I contract hiv in jail

At age thirty-one, I escape to the Netherlands to avoid being imprisoned again

At age thirty-two, I fall in love with a junkie and live with him illegally in Rotterdam

At age forty, I return to Germany for rehab, am treated with methadone, and start drinking

At age forty-one, I am committed to a psychiatric institution

At age forty-one, I hear that my lover has been shot dead

At age forty-two, I am admitted to a shelter for junkies with advanced cirrhosis of the liver

At age forty-four, I die while under the supervision of carers