I am born prematurely and survive my disability

At age two, I am taken out of the hospital and brought home

As a young child, I am being treated as a deformed child by my parents and punished at school for lagging behind in my development

At age eight, I start drinking my alcoholic father’s booze

At age seventeen, I fall in love with a compulsive gambler

At age eighteen, I drink excessive amounts of alcohol

At age eighteen, I begin systematically to seduce men and take them home

At age twenty, I am committed to a hospital to be treated for my defect

At age twenty-two, I am being abused by my intoxicated husband

At age twenty-three, I suffer from pains and am hospitalized

At age twenty-five, I am being treated like an inferior child by my husband and neglect myself

At age twenty-six, I decide to destroy myself

At age twenty-seven, I am depressed

At age twenty-eight, I cannot remember that I may have been raped while drunk

At age twenty-eight, I am chased out of the house by my husband and my parents

At age twenty-eight, my cousin’s drug addiction is kept secret within the family

At age twenty-eight, I flee Friesland, go into rehab, and live under the protection of the rehab program

At age thirty, I am depressed and committed to a psychiatric hospital in a state of shock