When I am born I am happy to be alive

When I am nine months old my uncle saves my life and loses his own life

When I am two years old, my alcoholic father regularly ill-treats my mother, who is constantly accusing

At the age of three my parents get divorced and I am tormented by my mother’s lover

When I am six, my father hits my mother so hard she ends up in hospital and I am glad that my parents are back together and that we move to the family’s countryside commune

When I am nine we move to the city and I hit the boys who tease me at school

At the age of ten I identify with the love-story of Christiane F

When I am eleven my drunken father says that I am to blame for my uncle’s death

At the age of twelve I drink and smoke dope

When I am thirteen, the boy I look up to rapes me

At the age of fourteen I am happy and doing well at school by using heroin

At the age of fifteen I am in love with a man who is eighteen years older and we each keep our drug addiction a secret from the other

When I am sixteen my parents report me to the police and forbid me to go on with the relationship

At the age of seventeen I am in a depression and deal heroin to provide for my own habit

At the age of nineteen my father reports me to the police and I am sent to prison

At the age of twenty-one I am released and start dealing drugs on a large scale

At the age of twenty-one I meet my husband and introduce him to the drugs scene

At the age of twenty-three I hope that the beneficial effects of the shaman plant Ibogaine will help me to have a child while being free from drugs

When I am twenty-five my daughter is born and my husband is imprisoned

From the time that I am twenty-five, my single father supports me in my drug dealing and I provide him with money to live on

When I am twenty-six my father claims part of the responsibility for my possession of drugs, as a result of which my sentence is reduced

At the age of twenty-seven I am clean and live from one day to the next