I am the religious child of my beloved parents

At age three my father forces me to watch as he rapes my mother

At age five my mother’s lover starts sexually abusing me

At age eight my father abducts me and declares my mother dead

At age nine my father terrorizes me and my mother with sexual violence

At age ten my father orders me to punish him by inflicting physical harm on him and tries to kill us both

At age eleven my brother is born and my stepfather stops raping me

At age eleven I have to leave grammar school, suffer from anorexia and receive psychiatric treatment for hallucinations

At age thirteen I use speed, tranquillizers, alcohol and methadone

At age fourteen I discover my bisexuality

At age fourteen I lead an intense, restless life without knowing how I can prove myself

At age fifteen I run away from boarding school, communal residence projects and homes, and become a prostitute to get an endless supply of heroin

At age fifteen I look for, and find, a sense of belonging in the community of outsiders

At age fifteen my stepfather accuses me in court of seducing him and is released from jail early

At age sixteen, as a result of taking fewer drugs, I suffer from paranoia, psychosis and hallucinations

At age sixteen I am diagnosed as having cirrhosis of the liver

Since I was sixteen, my life has been saved several times by emergency admissions after polytoxicomanic drug use

At age seventeen my father has me forcibly committed to a youth psychiatric clinic

At age seventeen I am given my first prison sentence

Since I was seventeen, I have been given prison sentences for illegal prostitution, drug dealing, robbery and theft and dealing in stolen property

At age seventeen I rent some space to live in the villa of my uncle and his whores

At age twenty-two my poison relationship with the man I love comes to an end

At age twenty-three I am clean and have no idea what to do with my boundless energy